oh wait...is it really 2005?

My sister and I returned late (or early, depending on how you look at it) Monday night from MI. Katie's funeral service was beautiful. What an amazing life lived in such such a short lifetime. Yes, there were many tears; but really I believe it served as a reminder, a wake-up-call of sorts, to those in attendance. Life is short, and it really is our job as Christ followers to use that time doing the things that matter the most. It had been a long time since I had seen KP (Katie's dad) and Nikki. It was almost sureal. I'm not sure why I have distanced myself from those that had the most influence on my life...still sorting through that one. Nikki put her arms around my sister and I and softly said, "you're my family." I was glad we went. We were debating whether or not to go. I now know it was the right thing to do. I went up to KP and that was when I really lost it. I know he didn't expect to see me, his whole face changed. We just held eachother and said I love you. I have promised myself I will keep in contact with him. I have much to tell him about my life and the role he has played in it.
So in a way, the family, grieving, followed right along with a comment made about Katie during the service... you go there trying to minister to her and you get the blessing. Isn't that the way so many things are in life?

It's good to be back home though. I was able the last few days to spend some time with my mom. She is a great! We stayed up till midnight talking about life and the church. I won't embarres her too much here, but she really impressed me with her listening to and acting on something the Spirit directed in her life. So it was good to see her, but I missed my girls so much. I am so blessed to have them in my life. It's good to be home and cuddle.

Anyway, the last few weeks have really crept up on me. Today, as I was sitting making plans for worship for the next few months, it finally hit me that it's actually 2005!! I "knew" it, but yet it really hadn't sunk in. This is gonna be the year. I can't really explain it all yet, but I feel the Spirit moving in my life. Somethings have been happening lately, and I know God is trying to get my attention. Last week at the Elevate planning meeting, we were discussing this years theme EPIC. The idea came out of looking at our lives through "the directors cut" version. You know, you get a DVD and get to hear why the director did the things they did, why they shot that scene that way, what the intention was, etc. How cool would it be to actually hear the commentary as our life is happening? So that's where I am right now...trying to listen to His story as it unfolds. I probably won't get it (we rarely do) but I've resigned myself to enjoy the journey, even if I don't know the destination.